I’m a 23 year old female. My parents separated when I was 2. Always had an on and off relationship with my bio dad. He got with my “step-mom” and had my 2 baby sisters with her. I got really close with “step-mom” when I was 18 and of course with my baby sisters despite the age gap. The relationship between my “step-mom” and bio dad was not good and they had a toxic on and off relationship. Being that I was close with her we bonded over my dad and would vent to each other about him. 2 years ago, I started working on my relationship with my dad and would spend time with him when he had my little sisters (they had 50/50 custody). He would tell me things about my “step-mom” like she only wanted to be close to me to keep tabs on him (I ignored this for a long time). Seeing how my dad was with my baby sisters was very different to how he was with me and my other sister growing up. It seemed like he was trying to change despite the things my step-mom would say. This caused me to distance myself and remove her from social media because she would make post about my dad that I felt were uncomfortable for me to see. (She also was talking bad about my mom while pretending to be her friend. Which made me feel like I couldn’t be close with her because my mom was genuine towards her).2 years ago she took my dad to court for a restraining order and full custody of my baby sisters. I attended court with my dad because he was nervous and asked me to. I put myself in the middle of what was happening between them which led to her not allowing me to have any relationship with my baby sisters. It has been 2 years and I have not been able to see or speak to them. I am the oldest out of all my siblings (siblings: 4 with my mom / 2 baby sisters from bio dad) and there is nothing I love more than being a big sister. It has been extremely heartbreaking going from seeing my 2 baby sisters all the time and picking them up to stay overnights with me to nothing at all. My step mom has isolated me from my baby sisters because she feels like I took my dads side and got in the middle. There is some truth to that because I told my dad some things that he wanted to know about my step mom from us being friends that I shouldn’t have said. I didn’t tell him out of malice or ill will towards her I just felt bad for my dad in the moment and came out with it. I tried to protect her in telling him the truth and also ease my dads mind at the same time. Looking back now, I realize I shouldn’t have said anything. I even question if my dad was manipulating me to get the information he wanted or if he was truly struggling mentally that day. Is there any advice for my situation and reconciliation with my step-mom? I want to continue my relationship with my baby sisters but don’t know where to go from here. I’ve tried reaching out many times over social media and have been ignored. Is there any advice that could be given for my situation? I’d even love to hear if any other siblings have gone through this type of pain. My heart hurts everyday and I feel empty without them in my life. My situation feels deeply lonely…